Sunday, May 8, 2011

Holy, Holy, Holy

I am departing for Israel tomorrow. 

It is happening. If I continue to think/talk about it I will FREAK OUT AAHHHH ASLKJHCGDUSHDUWFTCVGSBHIJHBTDR9876TBJHG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me just say, I cannot wait for encounters with my Savior and Father on this trip, but I am fearful of trying and worrying and over analyzing and comparing and too much journaling and not enough journaling and feeling emotional etc etc
I just want to be. With Him.

Soon, and very soon.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

A smattering of consciousness

Dear Life, 
       I have been thinking about how nothing feels substantial enough to blog about, nothing has given me that zing thought "Oh I am totes gonna blog about that". But, then I realized, actually maybe so much is happening right now that I have not slowed down to blog, or they are all far too substantial to blog about. Moreover, I cannot put into words the rush of emotion I feel about this season of life ending, or the anxiousness I have towards this summer, or the joy I have felt as my friends and I execute some "lasts" of ours. Often I post light-hearted, unimportant content on here and there just has not been much of that. So, in hopes to alleviate this feeling of hurriedness (I think I made that word up) and becalm my spirit, I will make quick, snippity (also made up) remarks on 'common' events lately. 

       I saw the sun rise this morning over the mountains with some good friends amidst a week of busyness. What a gift. Thou burning sun with golden beam, indeed. Oh praise Him! 
      I love when the purchases I buy in one outing are so fun. And it is never about the purchases themselves but the reason behind them. Buying blueberries, pears, spinach lettuce, gorgonzola, and green peppers to make a summery dinner for a friend. Buying a new, beautiful journal that I love so I can document ISRAEL. (IsraelIsraelIsrael) And buying some necklaces to give to several of my 8th grade girls whom I adore and have been so privileged as to be a part of their lives.
      Lastly, because it is the norm that I complain about the weather...seriously summer has still not come full force and even spring has been weaksauce. I can't wait to be in California climate soon.

avoiding the reality that this week signifies, 

p.s.- *sob*